Yesterday I was perusing pinterest and my dear friend Paige had posted a quote from the LDS Primary Song A Child’s Prayer that really hit me.
I remember growing up singing this song and always said it was my favorite, but had long since forgotten about it and hadn’t heard or sung it in years. It’s funny how applicable it seems now. Here I am trying to bring two little children into this world, but I have never felt more vulnerable and like a child myself as I lay in bed unable to do anything for myself and nothing to do but hope and pray. I love the message of hope this song delivers that our prayers are answered by a loving father in heaven.
Many people have asked to see a picture of the twins. Here they are, I think these pictures are so precious and I love the new ultrasounds that show their little features.
As far as treatment goes, things haven’t changed a lot with me. I am still contracting periodically, although there is no longer any sign of a fever. A doctor came in to speak with me yesterday and said that she and the other doctor had not been in good communication. She thought I still might be a candidate for the cerclage, but she wasn’t happy that I was receiving meds to stop contractions because she didn’t feel comfortable doing the cerclage without knowing what I was doing on my own. She took me off the meds and said we would wait another 24-48 hours (yahoo, love waiting). Because my fever went away and my contractions are painless and haven’t gotten worse she doesn’t really think there is an infection. I am just hoping that I can make it another 24 hours with minimal contractions and without having my water break/any other signs of labor. It’s stressful to lay here and try to get my body to cooperate when I really have no control, but was happy because the doctor seemed at least somewhat more hopeful. Let’s see what the next day or two have in store.