Bridget Kate 2 Months

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Started smiling consistently around 5 weeks, started smiling socially around 8 weeks

Can hold up head while being held in a sitting position on lap

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Can occasionally roll to her side, but not all the way over

Only will lay on her left side which is causing a slightly misshapen head (ah…)

Still sleeps HORRIBLY at nights, although her naps are better and she has only woken up once on a few blessed nights!!

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Had a rough fussy patch between 5-6 weeks, other than that is usually a complete joy and a very happy baby!

No longer likes to be held, would prefer to sit in her bouncy chair or lay on her back on the floor

Is a social butterfly, she usually cries if left in an empty room!

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LOVES her pacifier! That thing is a blessed gift!

Usually falls asleep on her own in her bouncer with a pacifier, at night she’ll cuddle a little, but still often falls asleep on her own.

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Loves to sleep in the car, in the moby wrap, bouncy chair, stroller, and occasionally the swing. Sleeps at night in her crib

She is discovering more language, has different whines,grunts, and coos in addition to crying

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Weighs 12 lbs, almost double her birth weight! Wow!

Lets out short squeals of delight…we think she’ll be laughing before we know it

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Screams bloody murder if she is hungry

LOVES getting her diaper change, and loves her changing table, she is all smiles on that thing!

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Likes to be naked

Has started to like bathtime, it calms her right down!

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Eyes are still DARK blue, we’ll see if they stay that way

Is Moody…can go from smiling to screaming and back to smiling within a few minutes!

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Has found her hands and likes to suck on them, I often find her sucking her hands for comfort at night when I go in to get her

Man do we love this girl!

Easter

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Me and Bridget Kate.  Sad Kyle had to be in North Carolina for the holiday :(

I am a little late but I have so many thoughts this Easter Season. This time of year holds a lot of memories for me. The twins’ due date was April 4th of 2014.  Right smack dab in the middle of this Easter season, and because of all Easter is about it has caused me to ponder.

Last year at this time, I was really not in a great place.  I was still deep in grief over the loss of our twins and just trying to keep our head above water.  I also wanted so badly to be pregnant.  While we had only tried a few months after losing our twins, it felt like an eternity and I felt that having another baby could help fill the gaping hole in my heart that belonged to Josh and Adelaide.

Now here I am a year later holding my sweet 2 month old baby girl as I type this, and I truly have experienced so much healing.  Bringing her sweet spirit into our home has brought more happiness and love than I ever could have imagined.  She has in many ways filled the emptiness I felt when I came home from the hospital empty-handed almost a year and a half ago, but that gaping hole? It’s still here. It’s not bleeding anymore, and it’s scabbed over and tough and scarred, but it’s still here.

In the same ways that Bridget has filled my heart with happiness, she has also caused a deeper longing for the children I don’t have in my home.  With her I’ve gotten to experience everything I didn’t with the twins.  I’ve gotten to hold her, feel her soft skin, bathe her, feed her, experience her first smiles, watch her little personality start to develop, and so many other wonderful things a first-time mom gets to do, and my love for her continues to grow each and every day as she blossoms into a beautiful child and eventually young woman. I feel so blessed for that opportunity.

As I watch Bridget grow, I can’t help but think back on my other children.  The children whom I love equally, but whom I got only a few hours with.  The ones I never got to see smile, or even cry. Bridget’s newborn photos look so much like her older sister Adelaide’s.  I am so grateful to at least have photos to compare.  I am happy that as Bridget grows up I can catch a glimpse or idea of what Adelaide might have looked like herself.

In tying these thoughts and feelings into the Easter season, I am so grateful that God blessed our family with our little Bridget Kate.  She is more than I could have ever hoped for and my mini pride and joy.  I know there are many who have not yet been blessed with children and after a long high risk pregnancy I count my blessings every day I get to spend with my daughter.  But as much as I hoped it would be, it’s not enough.  There will always be a hole in my heart that belongs to my other two children.  It may be scarred and it may not hurt all the time, but the hole can’t be removed in this life with all the children in the world.

Over 2000 years ago though, Jesus Christ overcame death and was resurrected, and because of that resurrection one day ALL of my children will be resurrected as well.  I know that only through the Savior I will be able to receive all of the blessings that Bridget has brought to our home with Joshua and Adelaide.  I look forward with hope to that day, but also am grateful for everyday here as I wait for all of my family to be together again.

Bridget Update

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Above she is 4 weeks (except the bath picture)

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Bridget Kate

Well I’ve been pretty much missing to the world since February 7 due to the arrival of our sweet, perfect, beautiful, baby girl!

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(*Note: Pinterest pictures of girls with perfect hair and makeup after delivering a baby are totally unrealistic. I was a sweaty, sobbing, but happy mess!)

She was 6 lbs 11 oz, 19.5 inches long, arrived 9 days early after only 4 hours of labor, 1 hour of which was spent speeding through sardine canyon, another hour in indescribable pain lamenting the fact that I hadn’t gotten to the hospital earlier because the nurses informed me that I was too far along to have an epidural, one hour of sweet relief when my doctor arrived and let me get the epidural even though I was dilated to an eight, and a half hour of pushing.

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She surprised us by looking like her dad with dirty blonde/light brown hair, grey/blue eyes (that will probably change) and his facial features (particularly his mouth).  We all thought my Puerto Rican genes would trump but I guess that’s not the case.

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We are so happy and totally exhausted.  Bringing a baby home from the hospital is probably the hardest thing I have ever done, aside from not bringing a baby home from the hospital.  Weird how life puts things into perspective for you.

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We are so in love with our little girl.  She is two weeks old and already showing us personality.  She’s a little feisty and a little stubborn, but she’s such an angel when she sleeps (usually a long stretch during the day that we wish she’d wake up for so she’d sleep more at night but she’s just too darling sleeping and cuddling to stir) that we can’t help but adore her!

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(First attempt at a newborn photoshoot…not a fan…)

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(Love the Afghan Bridget’s Great Grandma Elaine Crocheted, and a blanket my good friend Lindsay crocheted. Such generous and talented people who make great photo props! )

She’s growing WAY too fast already.  She’s already gained over a lb, an inch, and she’s not so cutesy cuddly anymore.  She loves to stretch her arms, legs, and even her fingers. She lifts up her head and even tries (unsuccessfully) to roll over.

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Her family is all in love with her (sorry to any family who I didn’t get pictures of yet…)

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Welcome to our family Bridget, we are so happy with you in our home!

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#Share the Gift

I’ve been MIA for awhile on this blog but I wanted to get active for a bit to participate share my gratitude for Jesus Christ this season. share the gift amanda

 

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I love the video put out by the church about the true gift of Christmas and I think it’s a great reminder to all of us that Christ is the reason for the season and the reason to celebrate.

I am so grateful for the Gift of Christmas. Here are just a few of the gifts I have received in my life this past year because of “the Gift”

The Gift of Healing-I don’t think one ever heals completely from the loss of a loved one but I have experienced so much healing in the past year and have been able to come to a place where I am feeling joy again.  I know that without Christ this would not have been possible.

The Gift of Peace and Joy-When I became pregnant again I wasn’t sure I would be able to feel joy in a pregnancy again, it felt like I would only feel anxiety, and at first I did feel a lot of anxiety and even resentment about being pregnant again.  That quickly changed and now I feel so much joy and happiness with every wiggle and kick.  I am grateful that Christ has allowed me to feel the happiness and joy that comes from expecting again despite my negative experience before.

The Gift of Forever Family-This year was really special as I got to attend the lds temple with my sister and and my future sister-in-law.  I am so glad that the temple allows families to be sealed together forever!!

So grateful for the Gift this Christmas Season.  What Gifts has Christ given you that you are thankful for!?!

Spaghetti Squash with Sausage and Kale

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So when I made this I really had no intention of posting the recipe.  I guess I just wasn’t overly confident that it would be very good. It was simple and quick and I thought it would be a pretty typical weeknight meal, nothing fancy, but boy was it was delicious.

We have an ABUNDANCE of spaghetti squash here in our home. We grew it last summer and the wonderful thing about squash is keep it in a dark, cool area, and it’s STILL good. I’m embarrassed to admit that this is the first thing I’ve made with it. Last summer I was rather pregnant and squash of any kind sounded pretty awful (as did anything else good for you, I subsisted on pop tarts and otter pops. yum.)

Anyway, this recipe totally changed my mind about spaghetti squash. I am now obsessed with it and want to eat it for every meal. Navajo tacos? How about Navajo Spaghetti Squash? Baked Potato Bar? How about Spaghetti Squash Bar? Tuna Noodle Casserole? How about Tuna Spaghetti Squash Casserole? Okay…that one may be taking it a little too far…but seriously. It’s good.

The reason I was surprised at how tasty this meal was is because it’s SIMPLE! (Mom, this is the recipe for you…it has 5 ingredients…salt and pepper don’t count…neither does olive oil). It’s a great meal when you want something quick, and will yield some yummy leftovers.

Let’s get cookin’.

Spaghetti Squash with Sausage and Kale

Ingredients

1 Spaghetti Squash

1 Tbsp Olive Oil

1 Small Onion

3 Cloves Garlic, minced

1/2 lb Country Sausage

1/2 bunch Kale, thinly chopped

Salt and Peppper tt

Directions

1. Preheat Oven to 375 degrees.

2. Cut Spaghetti Squash in Half and remove the seeds. (This is easier said than done, I think the easiest way is to cut off the top and bottom so you have a level surface to work with and then carefully saw through with a sharp knife).

3. Drizzle cut sides of spaghetti Squash halves with olive oil, rub it in evenly. Place squash cut side down on a cookie sheet and bake for 35-45 minutes until soft.

4. While Squash is cooking brown sausage in a large skillet over medium heat. When sausage is about halfway cooked, add the onion. When the sausage is cooked and the onion is soft, add the garlic and cook for about one minute.

5. Add the chopped kale and saute until it is lightly wilted.

6. When the squash is cooked, pull it apart with a fork.  It should come out in strands that look like spaghetti. Salt and Pepper the squash to taste. Add the Squash to the sausage and kale mixture and heat through. If you want a pretty presentation, put the finished product back into one of the squash halves and serve.

Recipe adapted slightly from this recipe at simplyrecipes.com

 

 

 

Asparagus with Pecans and Shallots

Asparagus 2 So I am an absolute Asparagus LOVER. It definitely is up there with my favorite vegetables. Although who could REALLY have a favorite vegetable? If I absolutely had to choose it might be tomato, which is silly because I don’t LOVE raw tomatoes. But think of all of the foods we wouldn’t have without tomatoes. Ketchup. Pizza. I need those things in my life. Anyway. I digress. Asparagus.

If you happened to read my Menu Planning post, you would have seen Asparagus about a thousand times in the next month. That’s because the months of March and April are the only times this most delicious vegetable is affordable, So I have to get my fill.

For this recipe, I actually altered my favorite recipe for green beans by subbing steamed asparagus for steamed green beans. So good news, this recipe is diverse. Use it for asparagus now and in the summer when your green bean plants are going nuts (oh, I can’t wait for summer gardening, we have some adventures in stores that I can’t wait to share. Yes, I am twenty-four and I think gardening is an adventure….I’m a REAL party girl…)

This recipe combines shallots, butter, and pecans some of my other favorite things with delicious asparagus for a nice nutty, savory side dish. For those of you who don’t know a shallot is a small purple member of the onion family. It has thin layers which allow it to caramelize more quickly and it has a bit more of a delicate flavor. You may all know what they are, but I felt the need to share because the first time I saw it in a recipe I thought it was seafood and I was instantly grossed out (I am okay with seafood but there is definitely a time and a place). Anyway, I quickly learned that there is a difference between SHALLOTS and SCALLOPS. Woo. Now that we’ve gotten that out of the way, let’s get to the recipe.

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1 lb Asparagus, trimmed

2 Tbsp Butter

1 Shallot, sliced

1/2 C pecans, chopped

Salt to taste

1. Steam or simmer asparagus until it’s crisp/tender. Don’t let it get too soft. I have a handy little microwave steamer that I like to use where it takes about 4 minutes, but I imagine on the stove it would be more like 7-8.

2. While Asparagus is steaming, Saute shallot in 1 tbsp of butter over medium heat until soft and lightly browned.

3. Once the shallots are browned, add pecans and toast for 1-2 minutes. Not too long as burned nuts don’t taste so good. Yes, I know this from experience.

4. Stir in asparagus, remaining butter, and salt to taste and cook until heated through. Can sub green beans or probably any number of green veggies for asparagus. Delicioso!


 

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